(CNN) — V. Stiviano is finally breaking her silence.
After dodging the media for days, the woman who recorded Los Angeles Clippers’ owner Donald Sterling making racist remarks urged him to apologize.
In an exclusive with ABC’s Barbara Walters on Friday, she said Sterling is hurting after the scandal that turned him into a sports pariah.
“I think he feels very alone. Not truly supported by those around him,” Stiviano, 31, said. “Tormented. Emotionally traumatized.”
But, she told Walters, this is not the first time they’ve discussed race.
“There’s been a number of occasions where Mr. Sterling and I had conversations just like this one,” she said. “Part of what the world heard was only 15 minutes. There’s a number of other hours that the world doesn’t know.”
One audio of Sterling’s conversation released last month triggered a firestorm that led to his NBA lifetime ban and a $2.5 million fine.
In the audio, Sterling tells Stiviano not to “promote” her relationship with black people or bring them to games after she posted a picture on social media with NBA legend Magic Johnson.
Stiviano said Sterling should apologize for the comments, and has discussed it with him.
“God only knows,” she said when asked if he will apologize.
‘In the heat of the moment’
Despite their numerous conversations, she does not consider him a racist.
“No, I don’t believe that in my heart,” she said. ” I think the things he says are not what he feels. Anyone can say anything in the heat of the moment.
“I think he comes from a different generation … he was brought up to believe these things … segregation, whites and blacks. But through his actions, he’s shown that he’s not a racist. He’s shown to be a very generous and kind man.”
She said he slammed his pictures on social media because of pressure from naysayers who criticized her and questioned why she’s always around him.
“I think he was generalizing,” she said. ” I think the focus of the subject at that time was just black people, but I think he referred to everyone, not just black people, when he made that statement.”
‘His silly rabbit’
During the exclusive, Stiviano also addressed the nature of her relationship with the Clippers owner.
“I love him just like a father figure,” she said, adding that she plays a crucial role in his life.
“I’m Mr. Sterling’s right-hand man, arm/man,” she said. “I’m Mr. Sterling’s everything. I’m his confidant, his best friend, his silly rabbit.”
She said she calls herself his “silly rabbit” because she does not take things seriously and makes him laugh.
She said the two are not involved romantically, and have a financial arrangement.
“He at first started paying me as an employee, and then he started paying me off the books,” she said.
NBA owners, players and others called for swift, firm punishment after TMZ posted the audio featuring the racist comments purportedly made on April 9.
The league’s commissioner, Adam Silver, heeded their call, issuing sweeping sanctions against Sterling on Tuesday.
He fined the Clippers owner $2.5 million and banned him from any association with the team for life.
Under the lifetime ban, Sterling is prohibited from NBA games or practices, stepping foot inside any Clippers facility, taking part in business or personnel decisions, or having a role in league activities such as attending NBA Board of Governors meetings.
If Sterling does sell the team, he’d profit considerably: He bought the Clippers for $12 million in 1981, and the team is now worth $575 million, according to Forbes magazine.
Stiviano’s attorney has said she did not leak the audio tape.