“She hasn’t left a void. She’s left a blast crater.”
Those two sentences give you an idea of the pain comedian Patton Oswalt is feeling just a couple of weeks after his wife’s death.
Michelle McNamara, 46, died in her sleep on the morning of April 21st.
Her death was sudden and unexpected.
Oswalt, who starred in TV’s “The King of Queens,” wrote an emotional tribute to his late wife on Time’s website.
He talked about her success as a writer with her blog, TrueCrimeDiary.com. And how a recent piece in Los Angeles Magazine lead to a book deal with Harper Collins.
But it was her impact on her friends and family that is giving Oswalt the most comfort and causing, perhaps, the most pain.
The reaction to her passing, the people who are shocked at her senseless absence, is a testament to how she steered her life with joyous, wicked curiosity. Cops and comedians call—speechless or sending curt regards. Her family is devastated but can’t help remember all of the times she made them laugh or comforted them, and they smile and laugh themselves. She hasn’t left a void. She’s left a blast crater.
The couple have a 7-year-old daughter named Alice. She is the reason Oswalt says he’s able to carry on.
Five days after Michelle was gone, Alice and I were half-awake at dawn, after a night of half-sleeping. Alice sat up in bed. Her face was silhouetted in the dawn light of the bedroom windows. I couldn’t see her expression. I just heard her voice: “When your mom dies you’re the best memory of her. Everything you do and say is a memory of her.”
That’s the kind of person Michelle created and helped shape.
That was Michelle. That is Michelle.
I love her.